Aaron Gillespie

Column is…. GO:

I’m in a strange mood tonight. I have no idea what kind of writing I’m in store for.

I’m dealing with very personal issues. They are basically at the focus of my mind’s eye and seem rather hard to ignore. I’ll have to touch upon them briefly and vaguely before moving on to the fringes of the peripherals. I hope you enjoy reading this. I hope I enjoy writing it. Most of all, I hope it does some good in somebody’s life, if not mine- then maybe yours.

College is great. Lawrence. KU. Everything is pretty much just great. I love it here. I definitely have problems in my life, but they can be pretty much summed up into two very brief statements about my life.

1. I don’t know what I want to do with it.
2. I don’t know how to deal with one aspect of my social life.

I don’t know what I want my major to be. I don’t like film. I don’t like math. I don’t really see the point in continuing to learn math beyond what I already know. I don’t particularly see how I would possibly need to know the derivative of some ungodly long and complicated functions in my daily life… and given that situation, I’m sure I’ll know somebody who would know how to. I don’t feel motivated or interested in any other line of courses either. I’ve never really had a job that I enjoyed going to. I enjoyed the people I have worked with, but never the job. I hear that most people don’t really enjoy their jobs. As far as the other aspect of my life, I can’t do anything about it. I can’t force anything to work, so all I can really do is hope for the best and plan for the worst. I hope that one day, we will both grow up into the people that we want to be and need to be. I hope too, that those people will be able to share their lives together. In the mean time, I just need to focus on doing the things that I want to do… and maybe more importantly, meeting the people that I want to meet. Either way, I hope she has a great time, stays safe, and stays smart; and I hope I do too.

I’m watching “Waiting” on comedy central. I think I’m probably missing out on 80% of the jokes in the movie. Terrible idea. That’s like showing porn as a reality TV show (which is probably the inevitable next step in reality TV).

I look forward to the first time I actually get to WATCH a KU volleyball game. Also, I am excited to see Amy and her team. Also, I want a to see Alissa and Brandon sometime before too long- my main problem is this: College is fun. Every weekend I miss from this place I usually end up regretting. I’ll have to peal myself away some weekends to make time for some of the other things I want to do. I’m going home to see mom and dad this coming Sunday.

I really gotta sleep.

Don’t take my quote wrong, I watched the Boondock Saints recently, and I have been thinking about this quote lately.

Quotes:

“ Abandon all hope, ye who enter here "
         - The words inscribed on the gates of hell as portrayed in ‘Dante’s inferno’ -

Column is…. GO:

Okay, so let’s try this column again. This time I refuse to let it suck.

I see people I recognize a lot more on campus this year. I even go as far as to say “hello” and have short conversations with them. Today alone I saw Christine, Bunmi (from my hall), Sarah (on my mud volleyball team), Jen (from acting class), Nick (my roommate last year), and Sarah Rolfus (a joint friend through Nick). I talked with all five of them. I suppose the impressive part of this is that I saw them all within the 20 minute time-span I was actually around on campus. It’s only 10:30 in the morning and I’ve already talked with more people than I did in an average day last year. I suppose that’s a good thing. Plus I’m playing volleyball tomorrow, then watching volleyball (unless we do something as a team.)

I’ve had a lot of thoughts on my mind. Last night those thoughts completely overwhelmed me. I think the best term to use is “Target Confusion.” Target confusion is a term that means you have so many possible things to “shoot at” (talk about, make jokes about, or literally shoot at). I hit on my relationships with my friends, my friends relationships with whomever, my life and development, and a short talk about how KU has been. I can’t do all of those things at once. Especially when I don’t have 4/5ths of them figured out myself.

Playstation 3’s dropped in price (or I guess you could say they just increased in memory capacity) and I’m finding a renewed desire.

I’m really tired.

I’m going to take a nap.

Top 5: Plans for today (possibilities)

5. Go to the rec

4. Do nothing at all

3. Hang out in McCollum

2. Hang out in Hash

1. Unknown?

Quotes:

“ I could get somebody pregnant through a wall "
         - Bunmi -